Music Monthly: September

September 29, 2017




This month I have been loving a lot of music, but mainly revisiting a lot of music that I used to love, so this months music monthly is going to be filled with old bands that I grew up listening to. Not forgetting some new stuff that I have been loving too. If you're enjoying these posts then be sure to also follow my spotify where I will be making monthly playlists that work alongside them and also feature a lot more music than I am able to mention in one post! 

Athlete who were one of the most fundamental bands in my childhood have made their comeback into my life and I couldn't be happier about me deciding to give them a listen again. They have such a chill vibe and are one of the few bands who manage to make me feel nostalgic about everything. Also, here's a hilarious article I found online about them by a superfan, it made mad laugh a lot.     
Songs I recommend: Wires, I Love, and You Got The Style

The Kooks are the kings of chill music, or at least in my opinion anyway. I have been loving listening to them recently, it reminds me of being thirteen and spending days on end in a park with my friendship group.
Songs I recommend: Ooh La, Sofa Song, and Seaside

Let's talk about Coldplay and my love for them. Although I haven't been listening to them too much I got a tattoo dedicated to them this month and therefore they deserve a honourable mention at the very least.
Honourable mention to Fix You.

I came across Jorja Smith in my YouTube recommendations and absolutely fell in love with how chill her music is. She is the kind of music that I would listen to with my friends while getting ready for a night out, or just something that gets me pumped enough to get myself out of bed in the morning. 
Songs I Recommend: Blue Lights, So Lonely and Prince.

SZA is an artist that I have been loving for a few months now, her music sounds like something so new and original (her and Jorja Smith's music work perfectly alongside each other). Her lyrics are empowering and also tackle a wide range of issues that females face, she speaks about her fragility but also owns it to the point that she sounds like a complete badass. If you haven't listened to her yet, then go do it now! 
Songs I Recommend: The Weekend, Doves In The Wind, and Supermodel.

Thats it for this months post! I've also linked my playlist below so you can give it a listen, and have a look at a few of my other playlists too as there is nothing I love more than sharing the music I love with people. Until next month's music monthly, stay cool and be sure to drop me any music recommendations that you may have! 


The Veggie Diaries: Pesto

September 25, 2017




Wait.. Pesto isn't veggie?


Since turning vegetarian I have been searching packages left right and centre for the little sign to confirm to me that the food I am eating is able to cater to my diet, one of the main foods that shocked me not being vegetarian was parmesan cheese. Yes, thats right, the best kind of cheese to put on top of your pasta is unfortunately not vegetarian. This is because it contains calf rennent, meaning that it is unsuitable for vegetarians. Sadly enough, this means most pesto's which are on the shelves of supermarkets are therefore unsuitable for vegetarians too due to the fact that a key ingredient in these pesto's is parmesan cheese. It wasn't until I read an article by the guardian (link here) that I realised the full extent of which this misconception and thought that all cheeses are vegetarian has reached, if you're interested then I definitely recommend it as a quick 5 minute read!

Thankfully, there are vegetarian pesto options out there, you just have to do a bit more searching for them, I have done a little round up of some of the vegetarian and vegan pesto options to help you find them!   





Sacla Italia Free From Pesto is vegan friendly and costs £2.50 at Tesco. They also do a vegetarian version, of the pesto too!







Another good brand is Meridian, who create a range of ‘free from’ products including pesto. This costs £1.99 and tastes great!











Moral of the story is always check for the signs to show that what you're eating is vegetarian and also look out for meals in restaurants which advertise parmesan as a vegetarian ingredient, as unfortunately it definitely isn’t.


(Credit for the illustration goes to the artist, I am unsure of who it is by as I found it on Pinterest.)

My Top 10 Films

September 22, 2017



There’s nothing better than curling up in bed or on your sofa with a good film and a range of snacks, I thought I would give you guys a list of films that I have loved for years and speak about why I love them. To  begin with I tried to make it a list of five, but it turns out I love a lot more films and have ended up with ten so enjoy reading them and be sure to send me any film recommendations that you may have.

Stuck in Love is my go to comfort film, partially because it has Nat Wolff in, partially because it has Lily Collins in, but mainly because of how wonderful the plot and soundtrack are. It follows three separate members of a families love stories; one of the father who is still very much in love with his ex wife; one of the daughter who is cynical about almost everything, but even more so about love; and the last about the son who is experiencing love for the first time. I love this movie, when I first discovered it I sat and watched it three times in one sitting because of how much it made a home in me.

If you know me, you will know the special place I hold in my heart for Amy Winehouse, which is why Amy is on my list. This is a documentary movie which follows the rise and fall of Amy Winehouse's life. It reinforces the fact that Amy was just a wonderfully talented London girl who didn't know how to deal with the life that she had ended up living. 

Beauty and The Beast  was always a favourite growing up, whenever I had sick days off school I would curl up on the sofa with my mum and watch the VHS tape of it with her. Obviously, times have changed and nobody seems to use VHS players anymore, so my copy of the film became a DVD version but this hasn't changed how much I love it; I will always have fond memories of watching this with my mum.

My love for Harry Potter will forever be one of the biggest things in my life, I even have a massive Dobby poster in my bedroom. I force everyone and anyone to watch the series with me and even if they claim they don't like it I will make them start to like it. My favourite from the series is The Half Blood Prince which a lot of people find strange as it isn't the strongest stand alone film but personally I feel it is a wonderful film that works perfectly within the series. Although it doesn't do the book the full justice it works well, shows character development in both Draco and Snape and also features one of the most heartbreaking deaths in the film series (aside from Dobby and Fred).

The chick flick of all chick flicks is Clueless, the funniest cult classic that I will ever watch. The screenplay is phenomenal, the fashion is incredible and the general aesthetic of the film is something that makes me love it all so much. It’s also a loose overlap of Jane Austen’s Emma which for the English student in me makes it even more appealing, though this is much more relatable for a modern audience than Austen’s novel would be these days.

David Levithan is one of my absolute favourite authors and the film adaptation of his collaboration with Rachel Cohn, Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist, never fails to disappoint. The film is set over the course of one night and follows Nick’s attempt to get over his self obsessed ex girlfriend as he meets Norah, I won't spoil the plot but it has a happy ending. As well as a wonderful plot and screenplay the soundtrack is wonderful, perfectly setting the mood for the scenes and holding a place in my iTunes library.

My Girl is another old film that I used to adore and have recently rekindled my love for due to the fact that Netflix have finally added it to their ever growing library of films. It is about first love, growing up and the strange relationship with death that the lead protagonist Vada holds due to her fathers profession of running a funeral house. Keep some tissues at hand for this one, it’s a real tear jerker.

This wouldn't be a post about films if I didn't mention Angus, Thongs, and Perfect Snogging. This was gifted to me when I was 10 and I genuinely live by it. The music is brilliant (why aren't the Stiff Dylans a real band???) and I can no longer listen to Scouting for Girls without imagining Georgia Nicolson running through the streets of Eastbourne in an olive costume. Not to mention the fact that it has literally ruined every single one of my expectations of love. All I want is to fall in love with a boy from London who works at an organic vegetable shop and have him fuck up then write me a song and perform it at my birthday party and make everything better - don't go acting shocked, I said it ruined my expectations on love. I can't wait for the day that I have a teenage daughter and can show her this film, hopefully it will be as influential to her as it was to me growing up.


Lastly, we have If I Stay. As problematic as Chloë Moretz has been, I love Jamie Blackley with my whole heart and the photo of him with Matty Healy resurrected me from the dead when he posted it; he is the perfect Adam, he is the reason I love the film as much as I do. Another film with a band that I wish was real with a fictional frontman that I love more than most real people. Give it a watch if you haven't already, it will be sure to make you cry.

My Writing Process

September 18, 2017







When I was at Summer in the City this year I decided to spend a lot of my time at panels, instead of trying to find and meet my favourite creators I would sit and listen to them speak about things they were so immensely passionate about. My favourite panel to sit in on was the 'women that write' panel, I found it so fascinating how so many different people have their own ways of writing, editing and sharing their work with the world. I thought I would take the time to sit down and work out what exactly it is that I do when I write and how it helps me, and then share it with you all. It's kind of fun to share my creative process with you.

I used to be the worst for having a process, this is something that I have definitely worked on developing recently and I feel as though my work has improved vastly because of this. I picked up a heap of tips from other writers, played around and found what works for me - so please don't take my word as some holy grail. It's just what I do. Anyway, without further ado I will take you through what my laptop screen tends looks like while I'm writing. (Also this is for prose and poetry as this is currently what I write the most of, incase you didn't know)






I will start with a rough draft, some ideas and the basic idea of where each line ends and a general structure, as you can see on the far left of the screen shot that I've put in for reference above this. This is what I call my word vomit, the roughest draft where I am getting everything down, giving myself things to work with. I tend to keep the basic premise of my writing throughout all my steps, however I do also change full lines and scrap other ideas until I am fully happy.

Then, I go on to edit it a bit. I open another document because that way when I am re-writing I am forced to decide whether I actually like  what I have put into the first document. It really leads me to think and forces me to remove anything I am not fully happy with/edit it into something I am a bit happier with. This tends to see the prose getting shorter, with longer lines instead.

The third one is me playing with words, looking for the ones that I feel work best for the piece and also slightly changing the placement of each line (this is such an awkward sentence, I'm aware, but I'm not fully sure how to word it). I also begin to think a bit more about punctuation at this point, things like where the commas and full stops should go etc. It is worth noting that I do mainly only use commas and full stops in my prose, no other punctuation seems to be used but I like it that way, same goes for my lack of capital letters. I personally feel as though they give a lack of fluidity and so I avoid them.

Lastly, I go through and finalise things. This piece took four re-drafts while some may take ten and others may take two or three, it really depends on how I feel about the piece and what work it needs doing to it. I also tend to thesaurus at this point, to ensure that all my vocabulary is cohesive and also that I feel I have used the right words in the right place, I use an online one for this as I'm still waiting for the day someone loves me enough to buy me a fat ass thesaurus.

Then, I decide what I'm going to do with the work. Where I'm going to share it, if I'm going to share it, or whether it is going to stay as mine (or maybe even go towards a project).




(Credit to Keaton Henson for the title illustration)

Devon in Photos

September 15, 2017




Last month I visited Devon with my family, we spent two weeks exploring little towns and beaches. Here's a little accumulation of the photos that I took.















(is it tho)




My First Tattoo Experience

September 11, 2017




At the age of six I discovered Fix You by Coldplay, a song that would ultimately be one of the biggest constants in my life. At the age of sixteen I had my heart set on getting a tattoo dedicated to the song and band that had been there for me through the past decade. Around this time my favourite wordsmith Dottie James put into the world the phrase ‘I will be my own light’. Being your own light ultimately means to me that I have the strength to get through whatever life throws at me, my light will guide me home. At the age of eighteen Dottie wrote out my tattoo for me, there is nobody who's handwriting I could think to be more fitting to get onto my skin. Today, I got a constant reminder of the strength I hold in my heart tattooed.




Here is a post to explain my experience of getting my first tattoo.


I had known the artist that I wanted to do my tattoo for a few months, I had made Pinterest boards and followed numerous artists on Instagram. I did my research on who I wanted to tattoo me and chose the wonderful danibelleink at 14 Arrows in Tunbridge Wells, which is a town close to my home. I put through a booking form on the artists website, we corresponded via email and eventually set a date and time which I confirmed by paying a £20 deposit. This was well over a month ago, I have had a month to build up my anticipation and nerves. 

So, on the day my best friend picked me up and took me to the parlour. I had a bit of a wait but I didn’t mind, I happily sat and scrolled through Instagram looking at tattoos and my friends posts. Then, when my time came I had to fill out a permission form and show my ID (pretty basic stuff).

After this Dani, my tattoo artist, came over to me with a print out of the script of my tattoo and we worked out what needed changing. If I had any issues with placement and sizing then she encouraged me to speak up, after all this is something that is going to be on my skin forever. I had to be sure I had fully happy with it.

Then came the time for the tattoo, I don't know whether I was more nervous or excited but there were definitely a lot of butterflies. I had been freaking out a few hours before and messaged a good friend of mine who has tattoos asking for advice, she told me that it would feel like a hot scratch and thats the perfect way for it to be explained. 

There were a few moments where it hurt a bit more than it had done in other places but all in all it was so much less painful than I had thought it would be (and I have the biggest fear of needles in the world). In the moments that it hurt I kind of pinched my leg with my spare hand as if to distract myself with another pain which worked really well and helped me to forget what was going on.

Because of how dainty my tattoo was it took no longer than 15 minutes, and because of my deposit I only had to pay £10 on the day.


I absolutely love my tattoo, I love the meaning behind it and the way it looks. I couldn't be happier. Here’s to my next one.

Top 5 Student Life Hacks

September 08, 2017




I've just left sixth form and I'm beginning my gap year, I thought I would share a few tips I picked up from my two years to help you out a little.

The first thing you're going to realise is you’re going to need to work out how to save money, Unidays is a perfect way for you to be able to save while shopping (it’s basically a free version of a student ID). All you have to do is sign up using your institution email or send them a photo of your student id from your institution. You can get some incredible deals through it, I picked up a pair of trainers from Adidas for £37 instead of £50 the other day, you can’t deny that is a bargain.

Another money saving life hack is that Spotify offer 50% off to students, you can use your NUS card or log in through Unidays and then put in your card details and bamn u have half price Spotify for a year (though they email you before the year is up to renew your student ID).

Nobody cares if you outfit repeat, nobody cares if you wear the same outfit twice in a row. Everybody runs out of new clothes to wear when it comes to school so stop stressing and try to push the dress code to be as comfortable for you as possible.

Use free periods to your advantage to get work done, this therefore gives you your evenings off meaning you can work an evening shift at your job or just have some chill time and escape from the stress of sixth form life. For me, I realised much too late that the library was the best place to get lots of work done in (especially essays), so give different places a try and see what works best for you.


Create yourself little weekly to do lists, in each of them break your tasks down and make it so that everything seems more rewarding. For me, when it came to essays I wouldn't just put ‘finish English essay’ on the list but would break it down into much smaller sections like ‘plan essay’, ‘essay intro’, ‘paragraph one’ and so on which then made me feel like I was completing more than I would have had I just seen ‘finish English essay’ on my list. Also give yourself a little reward once you've finished the list, whether its your fave snack food or having a night out with your friends.

The Veggie Diaries: Installment One

September 04, 2017




Since turning eighteen I decided to make a change in my life, this being taking the leap of becoming a vegetarian. I was never someone who regularly ate meat as it was, I had been cutting back on the amount that I consumed for quite a while and so I saw it the perfect point in my life to cut it out all together. I come from a family that eats vast quantities of meat and so having to explain to them that I was cutting it out of my diet was a strange conversation but nonetheless they have been completely supportive of my decision.

While everyone obviously goes veggie for their own reasons I thought I would share a few of my personal reasons, and create a little series on my blog called ‘The Veggie Diaries’ (the name will probably change once I find a better one) and share my experiences, recipes and a heap more stuff. If this is something that interests you then welcome to The Veggie Diaries, if not then you obviously don’t have to read it!

A lot of peoples first reaction when I tell them that I have converted to being a vegetarian is ‘why?’ and I thought I would take the time to explain my motives, while perhaps opening some peoples eyes to the different reasons. My reasons are like a lot of peoples, it was a very moral based decision that was educated through documentaries, research and knowledge passed down by friends. However, I also discovered that red meat had started to make me immensely ill each time that I consumed it, leading me to vomit which is something that anyone within their right minds would want to avoid. 

By cutting out red meat and already eating hardly any meat as it was a friend of mine asked ‘why don't you just go vegetarian?’ to which I responded ‘it’s too hard, I can’t do it!’. But little did I realise how easy it really is to give up meat, it has been well over a month now and I haven't touched a single piece, and other than the occasionally craving for a bacon sandwich (which can easily be subsided with some grilled halloumi) I honestly don't have any desire to eat any meat. Not only this, but there are so many veggie substitutes and options for eating out (even Nando's does several veggie options on its menu) that it is easier than ever to become a vegetarian and still eat in public. 

So, after being proved wrong that these things are easily done as long as you have the willpower to not eat it  I began to explore options for eating out. My friends and I are self confessed Wetherspoons addicts - and my order was always the same however I couldn't really order a hot dog with my new lifestyle change - and so I decided to try their veggie burger. This veggie burger is my favourite that a lot of places offer, add a bit of mayo and a pitcher (or three) of sex on the beach and I'm sorted for the night.

By being vegetarian and not consuming meat I am able to proudly say that I am contributing much less to animal cruelty (I would say  I have completely stopped contributing but I haven't changed my lifestyle to cruelty free/vegan just yet), I am also stopping helping to contribute to global warming, deforestation, over kill, and many other issues that impact the world through the meat industry.


It's All About The People

September 01, 2017







Recently I have had a lot of people tell me that I seem the happiest I have been in months, and I am putting it down to the vast amount of time that I have spent with the people I love, this year one of my resolutions was to try  my hardest to do so, and I feel as though this has genuinely helped to shape me and change my views on a lot of things. The past few months have been spent cutting out people who don't reciprocate the friendship that I offer them while also generally removing people who weren't helping me to develop as a person.

Right now, I have four people that I would call best friends. And when I was in year 7 the idea of only having four best friends was such a strange idea and something that scared me, why would you only want four friends when you could have twelve? The truth is, I don't even speak to any of the people that I was friends with back then. We all grew apart and grew up, realised our aspirations and goals and how different they were and moved on with our lives without being in each others lives. As sad as this is, I know that if I had clung onto these people neither of us would have been able to develop and reach out potential. These past few months everyone has noticed how much I’ve changed, how much I have thrown myself into spending time with people I love. 

Forcing yourself to be someone you aren't is going to stump your growth as a person, you aren't going to reach your full potential. If people don't like what your full potential entails then you don't need them in your life. It’s hard to let go of the people that you realise you don’t see yourself having in your future but you really need to be able to do it, in order to develop as a person and improve mentally. These people only end up dragging you down and making you feel like shit.


Once you've found the friends you know appreciate you it doesn’t matter how far away they are, or what they’re doing in their lives you know they will have your back. Those are the friendships and relationships that you need to cherish, they make everything worthwhile.
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